Today was a very difficult day for me. My heart just felt so sad and so broken. Life today just felt empty, sad, gray and dreary. Lately I've felt as if so much has happened to me within a one year's time...my dad passed away, my mom already got remarried, my parents' home is going to be sold and I have gained soooo much weight. I guess I sort of feel like I've lost both of my parents and that was probably my main reason for my sadness today. I feel like I am in a thick fog and I can't seem to find my way out. I don't understand why things had to happen so quickly, but maybe there is something more that I am not understanding.
I have been thinking a lot lately about something that I once heard referring to God. "Break my heart for what breaks yours." As I cried many tears today I thought about this. I needed to have a little time to myself today so I decided to go to the grocery store~yippee! When I got to the checkout line I noticed the clerk was a young woman probably not much older than myself missing quite a bit of her hair on the top of her head. She had shoulder length hair, but was balding the way an older gentleman might bald. My heart broke for her. She was so pleasant and so kind. I'm sure she has heard the whispers and received the stares of many people. I'm sure she has cried many tears wondering why someone her age has to go through something like this. It just broke my heart.
Another thing that happened today that really pulled and tugged on my heart was a young mom's little boy who has really struggled physically and was able to giggle for the first time. This giggle brought so much joy to his parents. Then, all in the same day, getting news of a man and woman's young daughter who passed away yesterday. I guess where I am going with this is when you feel like life seems hopeless or unfair, try to look around and maybe ask God "Lord, break my heart for what breaks yours." I have a lot to be thankful for.
With Thanksgiving approaching, I would love to hear something that you have witnessed that has tugged on your heart and opened your eyes to be thankful for what you have.
From my heart to yours,
Terra :o)
